BSG is back!!! I am so excited! I am so excited that i am scared to watch it alone. it is so intense. the suspense, the way they draw you in. the depth, the fine work and very interesting story.
Battle Star Galactica!
wow. I had no idea when they told me about it , before I saw it, and when I did see the first episode , I got totally hooked. This production is like no other. very addictive and captivating.
and the actors there as so beautiful, the human and the cylons, the human cylons that is. full of paradoxes, symbolism, passion, action, and spirituality too.
I will see you when I will see it. and i know then that that will be an amazing experience just like my last experience with Razor, the last thing i saw of BSG, where this crazy admiral woman - and who also has a love afair with the blonde attractive Canadian lady cylon. What a beautiful woman!! if you dont know her, look her up. what a beautiful woman !! very sexy ! Lucy lawless also is very hot, ex-Xena is now a cylon, a very interesting woman. and sharon, too, they have really beautiful women in this series. and of course i shouldnt forget to metion the president Laura and the amazing Starbuck. she is beautiful.
i browsed their pictures online, very beautiful people. check them out.
Friday, April 4, 2008
Saturday, March 15, 2008
Meditation
One of my goals is to meditate regularly. I am convinced it is a very good thing to do. All the people that I know/ know of who attained an admirable spiritual depth and attainment meditate. Now it is easier said than done of course. When i start my attempts I try to silence my mind. when thoughts start flocking into the screen of my mind - like invisible television broadcasting, I pick up my remote and turn of the TV, all of a sudden, the TV automatically turns itself on. I see myself sitting on watching that TV , holding the remote, and trying to turn the TV of.
I am trying to stop my thoughts using the same thing that generated them; the mind.
I am trying to stop my thoughts using the same thing that generated them; the mind.
Friday, March 14, 2008
Sleep Tips
1. Maintain a regular bed and wake time schedule including weekends.
2. Establish a regular, relaxing bedtime routine such as soaking in a hot bath or hot tub and then reading a book or listening to soothing music.
3. Create a sleep-conducive environment that is dark, quiet, comfortable and cool.
4. Sleep on a comfortable mattress and pillows.
5. Use your bedroom only for sleep and sex.
6. Finish eating at least 2-3 hours before your regular bedtime.
7. Exercise regularly. It is best to complete your workout at least a few hours before bedtime.
8. Avoid caffeine close to bedtime. It can keep you awake.
9. Avoid nicotine. Used close to bedtime, it can lead to poor sleep.
10. Avoid alcohol close to bedtime.
3. Create a sleep-conducive environment that is dark, quiet, comfortable and cool.
4. Sleep on a comfortable mattress and pillows.
5. Use your bedroom only for sleep and sex.
6. Finish eating at least 2-3 hours before your regular bedtime.
7. Exercise regularly. It is best to complete your workout at least a few hours before bedtime.
8. Avoid caffeine close to bedtime. It can keep you awake.
9. Avoid nicotine. Used close to bedtime, it can lead to poor sleep.
10. Avoid alcohol close to bedtime.
from http://www.sleepfoundation.org/site/c.jvKRL5MWIyG/b.2423027/
S.M.A.R.T weight Goal
S.M.A.R.T stands for Specific Measurable Attainable Realistic and Timely
By March the 13th on 2009 I intend to weigh 55Kgs
This is a SPECIFIC goal
This is MEASURABLE (using a scale)
This is ATTAINABLE. I need to lose 25 Kgs in 12 months. That is about 55 lbs in a year , this means i intend to lose about 4.6 pounds/month or about 2.1 Kg per month. I think this is pretty REALISTIC. it is less a little over 1 pound a week (about 1/2 kg /week) . In my opinion this is very doable. Finally putting a time frame makes it TIMELY and thus more TANGIBLE and makes it easier for me to commit to it.’ See more progress on: reach a healthy weight
Specific – A specific goal has a much greater chance of being accomplished than a general goal. To set a specific goal you must answer the six “W” questions:
Measurable – Establish concrete criteria for measuring progress toward the attainment of each goal you set. When you measure your progress, you stay on track, reach your target dates, and experience the exhilaration of achievement that spurs you on to continued effort required to reach your goal. To determine if your goal is measurable, ask questions such as…...How much? How many? How will I know when it is accomplished?
Attainable – When you identify goals that are most important to you, you begin to figure out ways you can make them come true. You develop the attitudes, abilities, skills, and financial capacity to reach them. You begin seeing previously overlooked opportunities to bring yourself closer to the achievement of your goals. You can attain most any goal you set when you plan your steps wisely and establish a time frame that allows you to carry out those steps. Goals that may have seemed far away and out of reach eventually move closer and become attainable, not because your goals shrink, but because you grow and expand to match them. When you list your goals you build your self-image. You see yourself as worthy of these goals, and develop the traits and personality that allow you to possess them.
Realistic – To be realistic, a goal must represent an objective toward which you are both willing and able to work. A goal can be both high and realistic; you are the only one who can decide just how high your goal should be. But be sure that every goal represents substantial progress. A high goal is frequently easier to reach than a low one because a low goal exerts low motivational force. Some of the hardest jobs you ever accomplished actually seem easy simply because they were a labor of love. Your goal is probably realistic if you truly believe that it can be accomplished. Additional ways to know if your goal is realistic is to determine if you have accomplished anything similar in the past or ask yourself what conditions would have to exist to accomplish this goal.
Timely – A goal should be grounded within a time frame. With no time frame tied to it there’s no sense of urgency. If you want to lose 10 lbs, when do you want to lose it by? “Someday” won’t work. But if you anchor it within a timeframe, “by May 1st”, then you’ve set your unconscious mind into motion to begin working on the goal. T can also stand for Tangible – A goal is tangible when you can experience it with one of the senses, that is, taste, touch, smell, sight or hearing. When your goal is tangible you have a better chance of making it specific and measurable and thus attainable.
By March the 13th on 2009 I intend to weigh 55Kgs
This is a SPECIFIC goal
This is MEASURABLE (using a scale)
This is ATTAINABLE. I need to lose 25 Kgs in 12 months. That is about 55 lbs in a year , this means i intend to lose about 4.6 pounds/month or about 2.1 Kg per month. I think this is pretty REALISTIC. it is less a little over 1 pound a week (about 1/2 kg /week) . In my opinion this is very doable. Finally putting a time frame makes it TIMELY and thus more TANGIBLE and makes it easier for me to commit to it.’ See more progress on: reach a healthy weight
Specific – A specific goal has a much greater chance of being accomplished than a general goal. To set a specific goal you must answer the six “W” questions:
- Who: Who is involved?
- What: What do I want to accomplish?
- Where: Identify a location.
- When: Establish a time frame.
- Which: Identify requirements and constraints.
- Why: Specific reasons, purpose or benefits of accomplishing the goal.
Measurable – Establish concrete criteria for measuring progress toward the attainment of each goal you set. When you measure your progress, you stay on track, reach your target dates, and experience the exhilaration of achievement that spurs you on to continued effort required to reach your goal. To determine if your goal is measurable, ask questions such as…...How much? How many? How will I know when it is accomplished?
Attainable – When you identify goals that are most important to you, you begin to figure out ways you can make them come true. You develop the attitudes, abilities, skills, and financial capacity to reach them. You begin seeing previously overlooked opportunities to bring yourself closer to the achievement of your goals. You can attain most any goal you set when you plan your steps wisely and establish a time frame that allows you to carry out those steps. Goals that may have seemed far away and out of reach eventually move closer and become attainable, not because your goals shrink, but because you grow and expand to match them. When you list your goals you build your self-image. You see yourself as worthy of these goals, and develop the traits and personality that allow you to possess them.
Realistic – To be realistic, a goal must represent an objective toward which you are both willing and able to work. A goal can be both high and realistic; you are the only one who can decide just how high your goal should be. But be sure that every goal represents substantial progress. A high goal is frequently easier to reach than a low one because a low goal exerts low motivational force. Some of the hardest jobs you ever accomplished actually seem easy simply because they were a labor of love. Your goal is probably realistic if you truly believe that it can be accomplished. Additional ways to know if your goal is realistic is to determine if you have accomplished anything similar in the past or ask yourself what conditions would have to exist to accomplish this goal.
Timely – A goal should be grounded within a time frame. With no time frame tied to it there’s no sense of urgency. If you want to lose 10 lbs, when do you want to lose it by? “Someday” won’t work. But if you anchor it within a timeframe, “by May 1st”, then you’ve set your unconscious mind into motion to begin working on the goal. T can also stand for Tangible – A goal is tangible when you can experience it with one of the senses, that is, taste, touch, smell, sight or hearing. When your goal is tangible you have a better chance of making it specific and measurable and thus attainable.
I got this stuff from http://www.topachievement.com/smart.html
Thursday, March 13, 2008
There are two ways to fail
To try and not succeed or to not try at all.
Winners try over and over until they succeed.
Losers never try at all.
Winners try over and over until they succeed.
Losers never try at all.
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
Rejection and realizing you've been rejected
I remember the first time i was rejected. I couldnt believe it. (we are talking about romantic rejection by the way) . I couldnt get over it for the longest time. I was so full of myself and couldn't comprehend, how can anyone in their right mind reject me. I thought I was unrejectable. Now I know better. I dont take personally as much as i used to. I realize people have different tastes and interests so therefore not everyone is supposed to be attracted to me. and when i dig a bit deeper , people who are not attracted to me I am not really attracted to them to start with, when i really look hard and honest inside myself , i realize that their rejection makes them look more attractive, because my focus becomes to get accepted by them instead of feeling weather there is a connection there. Now if things were this black and white , not a big problem. The real problem is when you are not sure weather you are being rejected or not, weather the person you are being involved with is just afraid or if they are really not into you. this confusion eats up a big part of the self esteem. and instead of focusing on how you feel about the person , you get sucked into speculating and interpreting this other person's signals (or the lack of signals)
recently i realized i have been rejected. i feel much better now that i am outside the speculation and guessing game. i hate mystery and guessing. so , i got rejected, good, better now than later, that means i am getting closer to my goal. i am burning down my rejection quota, anyway , someone who rejects me cannot be suitable for me . dont you think?
recently i realized i have been rejected. i feel much better now that i am outside the speculation and guessing game. i hate mystery and guessing. so , i got rejected, good, better now than later, that means i am getting closer to my goal. i am burning down my rejection quota, anyway , someone who rejects me cannot be suitable for me . dont you think?
some music for you
Here is one of my mixes
| Rush the floor wit... |
اللؤلؤ المنثور ... في فمك الجميل
فيه السعادة للشقي .. وللعليل
فاذا تفتحت الشفاه ثوانيا نورّت دنيانا وأحييت القتيل
The scattered pearls...in you beautiful mouth
brings happiness to the miserable , and the sick
if your lips opened for seconds our life lights up and the dead are revived..
The name of the artist singing in Arabic is Sabah fakhri from Alleppo, Syria. Then I am using a really old poem i think it is by امرؤ القيس... not too sure anymore. i am starting to forget these things you know.
the poet talks about his lover , how graceful is the way she walk, how loved by her friends and neighbours how she keeps their secrets, how when she stands up the fragrance of tulips and roses spreads all over the place...
bla bla bla , love and crap
Emotional state
I'm feeling emotional, I know that is stupid. no, really it is stupid. nothing changed since yesterday, i only grew up one more day, i slept and woke up, received some more spam, spent a little bit more time on the PC and the TV, ate and drank...
nothing significant.
i feel rejected though. maybe because i am listening to emotional songs that are taking me back to times when i felt loved and in love. maybe because these songs are transmitting sad feelings. i wonder if i will feel happy if i listen to happy songs. am i taking on the feelings in the songs or is the song playing because it is reflecting my own feelings.
recently something happened , i met someone , and i got rejected, it didnt feel good at all. it clouded my judgment about how i feel about that person. you know what Madonna says? "rejection is the greatest aphrodisiac" do you think she is right?
The truth is that i have so much love inside me, that i need to share, to give, to express, and i keep on running into people who are afraid of love, i learned recently or not so recently that i cant express my feelings openly and freely, i cant be transparent. i never believed or followed that directive. the result, rejection or feeling rejected. having to swallow back my pride and emotional expression and crawl back in bed with old memories and fantasies of glimpses of loving moments.
Why do humans need love?? what is so special about a kiss ? about lips meeting? what happens when lips meet? how can people be so close one day and next day they are strangers. they hurt each other and say bad things about each other..
why does a song affect me so much? is it because it resonates on the deepest level with feelings i once touched and tasted? sad or happy
I dont know. i wish i knew, or maybe i dont wish, because at least i have an excuse now to be stumbling, i dont know, if i knew then i cannot justify my stumbling.
love love, they say it makes the world goes around.i love myself , but that still isnt enough, nothing is like hearing and smelling the love.
i am rambling heavily , i know. that is why God invented blogs , so that people like me ramble freely, liberally.
it will pass, the 'i need personal romantic love' fever. i think i like being in that state otherwise i can turn off the fucking music and go take a shower or a walk.. but again, no , i cant run from myself. in the shower I'll have me with me, i cant hide or run.
i tell myself this is only my domestication, it is all learned behavior. even feelings are not real, they are how we learned to react to different things.
In Star Trek there is a race called the 'Vulcans'. Vulcans were once emotional barbaric but then they decided to control themselves, they meditated and controlled their minds and emotions so that they dont get into the kind of emotional turbulence similar I am in today. they succeeded in living according to logic. But the price was high, we see in one of the episodes how Tuvac , the Vulcan became crazy eventually. In another episode it shows how when Vulcans are in sexual heat they are totally out of control.
The question is , will I even find the kind of love that i imagine and wish for? will i feel this real and deep connection with another person where there we become pure energy, where we merge but stay separate , connect on the emotional, physical, mental and spiritual, where there is no inhibitions and right and wrong, only pure transparency and childlike innocence exists, where play is the game, exploration of the soul.
bla bla bla
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